Saren Grey

19. Adventurer. Writer. Transman ♂. Human.
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  • If only I was prepared for how hard life would be when I was a kid. Instead, we’re told a bunch of deceiving lies. I was never told that lending my pencil would lead to it being stolen, or that my white privilege would allow me to have agency that others will never have. I was not told that I would have no choice in many of my life changing decisions. I was not told that wearing masculine clothes wouldn’t be allowed for people who are perceived to be women. I wasn’t told that grades would determine my fate, or that men can do terrible, terrible things. And damnit, I was not told that my identity would be constantly questioned, even by my own blood. We live in a world where deception is used as a weapon, and that’s not okay.

    2 weeks ago with 38 notes

    Almost 19 and I’m no where close to where I’d like to be in life. 

    5 months ago with 22 notes

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    Sadly, it’s been a while since I’ve taken the time to actually write something on here. So, I thought I’d share my insight with you all, even though most of you will see this and scroll right by. But hey, that’s ok! 
The other night I was at a party and I was fortunate enough to speak with someone I’ve never had the chance to really get to know, although we’ve been acquaintances for years now. I instantly opened up to her and confessed my interest in women (which is a shock to many, as I am biologically female). I told her how I’m not accepted by my family and how at one point, 2 years ago, I was on the edge of suicide. No one knew at the time; I didn’t tell one person about my daily self-harming habits. She stared at me with this look in her eyes. It was not a look of pity, or sympathy, or anger, but of sorrow. She then told me that she had been suicidal for 6 months with no one knowing but her parents. This girl, a girl who I have never seen without a smile on her face, confessed to having been through depression. I was in shock. I told her how glad I was that she had her parents there for her, and how I yearn for that connection with mine. She hugged me so tight, and I genuinely felt worth something. She whispered “I’m so glad you’re still here. You’re so incredibly strong to have gone through that alone.” This girl has changed my year. I later told her that I’m Transgender and how my parents and I have a terrible, if any, relationship. She asked me: “do you ever feel like you were born in the wrong generation?” My answer was no, of course not. Although the world is not nearly as openminded as it will be, it is our job to make the necessary changes. It is our responsibility to change the world and I’m so blessed to be a part of that. I think that anyone going through a hard time should just smile. Be happy. Do crazy shit. Be a good person. Smile for all those fucking haters. And please, start to love yourself. Go look in the mirror and fucking smile because you are you, and NO ONE can change that. 

    So your born a girl and you get annoyed when people refer to you as 'she'? What. . .

    @Anonymous

    i try very hard to be respectful, but honestly, you’re just fucking dumb.

    leave.

    1 year ago with 18 notes

    do you believe in long distance

    @Anonymous

    absolutely. as absurd as this sounds, i would prefer a long distance relationship over an in-person one. long distance allows me to be less insecure in regard to my gender situation because i’ll really know that they love me for my personality as opposed to my looks/genitalia etc. 

    1 year ago with 15 notes

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    wait so do u have a dick

    @Anonymous

    image

    1 year ago with 23 notes

    you look like a girl

    @Anonymous

    Oh, really? What do girls look like? Do they have long hair and a feminine face and boobs and a vagina? Do they like makeup and going shopping? 

    I know many girls who have penises, yeah. And many who prefer to dress more masculine, no not dress like a boy, just masculine. I know many girls who do not look like “girls”, but in fact they are one. Girls and boys do not all look like the fucking rest of their gender, just because society finds the need to make distinctions between the two and create labels. 

    Thank you, for telling me that. Because I am a boy who doesn’t fit all of the “male” qualifications, but you know what, I’m fucking proud to be me. So, thank you.

    1 year ago with 50 notes

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    My dad has recently started saying “love you” before hanging up the phone and it really does make me happy hearing it from a family member.

    1 year ago with 20 notes

    It’s scary to know that you could spend days, months, even years getting to know a person, and in the blink of an eye, they could be completely gone. 

    1 year ago with 20,027 notes

    advice for a strong long distance relationship?

    @Anonymous

    It takes two

    1 year ago with 15 notes

    I genuinely feel like I will never be good enough for anyone or anything.

    1 year ago with 59 notes